I'm going to disagree with you on it being "a very disappointing night" - sounds like it went well to me, considering it was your first time sarging. Try and take some positives from the whole experience - by the sounds of it you were fearless and outcome-independant. It takes balls to keep on approaching like that on a first night out so good on ya.

Try not to be put off after an experience like this. Whether it feels like it or not, you'll have learnt a shit load from that night and next time you go out you'll put it right and get a little further. Before you know it you'll look back to tonight and will have progressed miles. That's what's happened for me, even in the couple of months I've been doing this I've come on in leaps and bounds.

It's all about taking baby steps and practicing as much as is humanly possible.