The Girlfriend

I went to school with her but didn't really show any interest...since then I bumped into her at tesco and we started chatting/ dating ever since. She is a nurse so she works hectic shifts, which works for me as I get my weekends to my self to see my friends and times during the week.

The Sex
She is the same age as me and has 2 serious partners since school. The sex is fantastic and gets better as we experiment. She lacks on the blowjob department but her willing and eagerness to learn outweighs that. She watches porn with me and I tell her thats how id Like her to do it etc.. she is abit naive but loves it!
I ask her to bring some high heels to wear when we have sex. Great she does it no questions asked

I drive her out to remote places and have my way with her on and in the car. She does it!

She just wants to please me and is more fond of me then I am of her ( what the fuck is wrong with me! )

The Problem

As soon as I started dating her I removed my Pof profile. changed my number. and was 100% Loyal.

Thats until I started wanting more... more of what I dont know.

ive started seeing 2 other girls while seeing my gf ( yes i know im a scumbag for this but I seem to justify it in my head so I feel no guilt )

I am sleeping with the same 3 girls every week and arranging meets with other girls ( through work or pof ( I logged back into my old account :@ )

Neither my gf, or the 2 other girls know about each other. It was my 23rd Birthday last weekend and all 3 girls baked me a cake and bought me a presents...

Sex

its the sex... I just crave it in lots of different varietys all the time. I stroke the snake about 3/4 times a day then I will have sex 2/3 times that night.

Before I got with my current gf I would attend swinging events / Dogging / Visit prostitutes off adutlwork and actively plan meets from Pof. Even a few cases of amateur porn.

I even recorded my having sex so i could watch it afterwards to see how I could further improve.

Its starting to become a problem now and I know deep down if my gf found out about any of the above it would break her heart.... But I still continue.

I have allot of good things in my life already but I seem to push them aside for the thrill of having more sex.

Im 23 , Have a great job , I have a great relationship with my family. A good group of friends and a caring loyal girlfriend.

Yet I let this obsession of exploring sex impact my life in a negative way

But I just have a craving to continue my pointless crusade..


/rant

Thoughts & any advice more then welcome

I like this because i identify my former self with it.

eaxctly like you i had a long term girlfriend 10 years, exactly like you i turned into a sexual whore, pushing boundaries and exploring every permutation of sex, sex with younger, older, strange places, dam just different girls was enough to enage with, sex with girls in different towns, cities, sex with girls id not even spoke to and just fucked from pre-arranged meets, videoing sex

basically eventually you will break your girlfriends heart, and possibly break your own at the same time.

But its somthing you ahve to get out of your system, knowone can tell you to stop doing it and reason with you because its in your head and you need to satisfy that hunger

while i was with me ex of 10 years id feign a head ache on a saturday night and leave her house early, only to meet up with some random off the internet at a travelodge and drop a viagra and bum her all night long.

its been 3 years since i destroyed my exs world and i also destroyed myself and only reailsed this all too late, since then i continued whoring and have easily has sex with more than 300 girls, must be around 350 now.

I am bored of this and have all but satisfied my hunger for raping and pillaging and want to settle down and have a family and play the simple life.

you`ll get there eventually- you`ll just go thorugh a lot of pain beforehand

Thanks for the response

From a glance it seems like a massive fuck filled ball of fun until I destroy some ones world..IE my currenty GF. I have conflicting morals.

Do you still speak to your ex ? and how does she feel towards you now ?

Also you mentioned that you are past that stage now where you want to settle down. The though of me getting married, having kids and settling down is nice... I like the idea

But I dont want to be one of these married men who still has lots on his bucket list and ends up cheating on his wife/ kids. I want to be the guy who has done that and is internally happy

The stupid and sick thing is, i found i truly loved my ex when she was sat on the floor in a heap totally unconsolable with her heart ripped out and i knew there was no going back

My ex said she forgave me, we tried to make it work but after somthing like that it can never work , we dont have any contact now because her new bf doesnt trust her anywhere near me and i guess its for the best.

in the 3 years ive been single ive done so much whoring its untrue but its empty for me now and its not what i want anymore-- but i had to get it out of my system

adultwork??

**Googles**

:O

WHY HAS THIS NOT BEEN INTRODUCED TO ME BEFORE.
FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.

how much do video credits cost?